The second way out is epicureanism. It consists, while knowing the hopelessness of life, in making use meanwhile of the advantages one has, disregarding the dragon and the mice, and licking the honey in the best way, especially if there is much of it within reach… That is the way in which the majority of people of our circle make life possible for themselves. Their circumstances furnish them with more of welfare than of hardship, and their moral dullness makes it possible for them to forget that the advantage of their position is accidental … and that the accident that has today made me a Solomon may tomorrow make me a Solomon’s slave. The dullness of these people’s imagination enables them to forget the things that gave Buddha no peace — the inevitability of sickness, old age, and death, which today or tomorrow will destroy all these pleasures.This article describes Tolstoy thinking through his broken question related to the meaninglessness of life. I really like the flow of his thinking and how he works through his question/problem. I don't feel like I share his perceptions on where the limits of things are (reason/the infinite) but I find the process of thinking with him valuable. The quote above I find valuable because of how well it seems to describe us.
Sunday, June 8, 2014
Saturday, January 4, 2014
I want to influence the next generation and guide.
I don't have hope. It doesn't matter. I don't need hope,
I just need goals.
I need to forget outcomes at some level.
To just plod through, and be aware.
Life is a mystery and that is enough.
Thursday, October 3, 2013
On this sad day my heart sadder than the day ...
Moral and civic obligations?
The intricate web of duties, of consequences?
No, nothing ...
A sad day, an apathy toward everything ...
Others travel (I've also traveled), others are in the sun
(I've also been in the sun, or imagined I was),
Others have purpose, or life, or symmetrical ignorance,
Vanity, happiness, and sociability,
And they emigrate to return one day, or not to return,
On ships that simply transport them.
They don't feel the death that lurks in every departure,
The mystery behind every arrival,
The horror within everything new ...
They don't feel: that's why they're commissioners and
Go dancing and work as office employees,
Go to shows and meet people ...
They don't feel--why should they?
Let these clothed cattle from the stables of the Gods
Go cheerfully by, decked with garlands for the sacrifice,
Warmed by the sun, cheerful, lively, and content to feel what
they feel ...
Let them go, but alas, I'm going with them without a garland
To the same destination!
I'm going with them without the sun I feel, without the life
I'm going with them without ignorance ...
On this sad day my heart sadder than the day ...
On this sad day every day ...
On this very sad day ...
(Alvaro De Campos) 13 May 1928
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
- No good choices
- Navigating a maze of percentages to decide what sort of treatment to follow. The percentages vary highly depending upon the specific characteristics of the cancer itself. Personal genetic profile has an impact as well.
Friday, March 15, 2013
I’ve been thinking on and off about the question “why is there something rather than nothing?” before falling asleep for the past few months. Not much has come from thinking about it. I’m considering actually reading a philosophy book on it, I heard there’s a recent good one about the question but you know, that’s cheating.
Anyway, all I really have gotten to is that in some ways I do think the question is confused but even there I don’t think I really escape it by examining it. So then I started thinking about why I find the question so fascinating and I think it’s because I ask “why” and then look for intent. I mean I don’t feel like when I ask it i’m looking for a causal story. And that’s about it, I don’t think I can get to a place from which to see an explanation and I can’t think of a satisfying one and answers seem to beg the same question again in alternate form.
The biggest way I think it’s confused is that, you know, we don’t experience ‘nothing’ so it seems like a false comparison. Or if you rephrase it to ‘why does the universe exist at all’ or whatever then well, maybe if we could see some non-existing universes then we could compare and understand the difference.
But like I said, I take the “intent” turn when I think of it more and I guess the best answer I come up with is derived from a dream I had some time ago. In the dream I’m talking with God and we’re present in space together observing the universe more clearly than the clearest starry night you’ve ever seen and we’re conversing (non-audibly, why would that be necessary?) with each other. He knows I have these questions and want to know the secrets of the universe. But what he tells me is this — the universe is essentially information and if I knew the answer the universe would implode upon itself. So this particular not-knowing is a necessary condition. If I’d persist he’d communicate something like, “there’s no cause for concern” and then he passed along some sort of infinite peace.
I assume the God I ran into in my dream was the God of the Skeptics because who else returns unending inquiry with peace?
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Written shortly after he heard his first wife was dying from cancer.
My prayers are unheard, But Thy sublime indifference will ensure that I not burn in some everlasting fire. Give me a place among the sheep and the goats, separating none from none, leaving our mingled ashes where they fall. ... O Time, O Elements Grant them rest. Amen.
Sunday, January 13, 2013
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
If you're like me then you realize that no matter who you vote for this election, you won't be represented on most major policy decisions. Sure there will be some trivial things like, you know, staving the complete collapse of US society as we know it off by stopping the Republican candidate. But then you know, a competent government can do bad things much better than an incompetent one. So it's hard to say.
In any case, your vote not counting is no reason to not vote. It just happens to be things are bad enough your vote might not be enough to make your vote count so you've got a bunch of other shit to also do to make sure your vote counts next time.
Some Friedersdorfian reasons you might not want to vote for either candidate: